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A Journey through Grief and Creativity

Hi, everyone!

It’s been a while since my last post, and so much has happened. The title of this entry couldn’t be more fitting. Last year, on February 28, 2024, I lost my husband—my soulmate, my partner, my best friend. The pain is immense, and adjusting to life without him has been incredibly challenging.

Navigating Grief

I’m still navigating this difficult journey, trying to find my footing again. After caring for him for so long, I neglected many aspects of my life. Everyday tasks like house cleaning have piled up, leaving me feeling overwhelmed. He battled illness for several years, gradually deteriorating, which made our time together all the more precious.

And then, this one night, I was getting him everything he needed for the night, he was on oxygen by this time and we were joking around about something or other, I was sitting on the side of his bed laughing about one of his crazy tall tales, He was the most quick witted person I have ever known, funny as all get out. right before I went upstairs, he was sleeping downstairs because it was just too much for him to make it up the stairs any more, so we turned the living room into his bedroom the last year or so.

I gave him his medicine, we kissed each other good night and as I got up he took my hand and asked,"Hey, do you want to do some art tomorrow?" His enthusiasm was infectious. He was a talented artist who loved working with oils and hadtaken up airbrushing, also. Our shared passion for art brought us countless joyful hours together in our art studio  pulling all nighters like crazy people listening to Pink Floyd and the Indigo Girls and so many others that we loved.

We have been married for 34 years and that's just what we loved to do.It was always just Robert and myself since the kids had all grown up and now have families of their own.  We didn't socialize much, I mean we had a few  friends, but we mostly just hung out together.

He was very disciplined in his art, he stuck to painting and sculpting. right before he got sick though, we bought some new rock equipment to grind and polish them into jewelry which is one of my fav things to make.  he would tease me saying that I had Creative ADD, and he was right!  I have done a little of everything and have it all right here in our house.  I would laugh and just say well, baby, you know me better than anyone and how I cycle through all my mediums so I am never bored. he would laugh when Id say I'm just a Jill of all trades and a master of none!

Then we went to bed. We were laughing, joking about something. And the next morning I got up.

. . . and then he was gone!

After he passed, I found myself in a big house with just my two dogs and two cats. The silence was deafening, but I’m determined to keep his spirit alive through creativity. I’m diving back into my projects—3D printing, laser engraving, clothing design, and more. I’ve always had what he called "Creative ADD," dabbling in various crafts to keep boredom at bay.

The list of things I want to accomplish is endless, and it can feel overwhelming at times. But I’m finally starting to feel a little better. I’m working on my blog again, eager to share my creative ventures and updates with you all.

But anyway, just wanted to give you guys a little update. I'm go going to start trying to keep my blog updated and let you guys know what's going on, what I'm going to be making, my new ventures and things that are happening. I'm looking forward to it. I hope you'll follow along and keep up with me. 

I want to thank you for your support and understanding during this time. Your comments and kind words motivate me to keep going. I’m excited to share my journey with you, as well as my new projects and ideas.

I apologize for disappearing so suddenly, but I’m back and ready to engage with you all again. Thank you for reading my blog and for being part of my creative journey.

Live Life Creatively!

With love,

Renee

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